Getting back into writing is excruciating at times. I'm stuck between spilling my shit out into words and letting everyone else judge me - or editing my life to seem a bit better from the outside. Luckily I have no problem living in a glass house. In fact, I'm ridiculously clean, love good music playing, usually have candles burning...and love to be naked.
Instead of erasing all my posts from the last year, I've decided to just be plain honest and start back up in real life time. My fairyfuckingtale of a second marriage is over, I go to counseling 2 hours a week, I work my ass off, I am an amazing MOM to my boys, I love yoga, I have the best friends in the world, I can dance like a house on fire and I know good music. I cook, I keep a clean house, and I strongly believe life is fabulous, and if you aren't surrounding yourself with people who are positive and help you grow and inspire you in some way - you need to clean house too. If I have learned anything in the last three long years, it is that it's crazy and unpredictable. Live it up and hang on tight to the people in your life who love you truly and who thrive for happiness...
I have clung to Corepower Yoga for the last year. I visited a studio back in 2007ish and I loved it then...but didn't have the need or the discipline. I am a lover of music. I'm shocked when I meet people who don't have the same relationship with music. Music has been a mainstay in my life since I was born...from Fleetwood Mac as a baby, to my years of sweaty grooves to house music - it's always playing in our home. always. My boys listen to all music from dubstep to johnny cash. I am happy to say they have never heard Disney songs and they don't like new country.
shit...back to yoga.
Corepower is yoga, sweat, and amazing music. It's my cocktail of survival. I went from 2 days a week to four days a week in a short time. I am consistently challenged and reminded of my spot on this planet. I use my time much more wisely now.
There have been multiple days of tears on my mat. I soak my mat in sweat from working hard to keep my body strong and I cry profusely during yoga. Yoga is my church - I don't care for organized religion and have yet to meet anyone involved in the church who isn't scarred from it (including all my girlfriends who are Catholic) . I find solace in my friends, family and self love (and mimosas). Yoga is all about YOU and feeding your fire. As corny as it sounds...setting an intention and dedicating an hour each day to focus and really challenge your mind and body together is remarkable. I love hiking and running too - but I'm not a lover of UV rays on skin, I hate bees (but appreciate their contributions) and I'm pretty tall (luckily!!), so my knees and feet need love.
I am slowly trying to empty this last piece of baggage in my life, and I'm barely making it through my toiletries. Thankfully I have found a late night regimen that makes we wake up with a glow like you've never seen.... swipe this magical cloth all over your mug, and then slather on a bit of this moisturizer. I usually don't reach for wipes, but these bamboo wipes make reaching for my cleanser, that much harder. As for my absolute favorite face finishing moisturizer - it's a favorite for a reason. Here's to a bright life and bright, beautiful skin.
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